What a shame.

So I just talked to the wife, and she has decided not to come over tonight. I haven't shot any dope all day, as I was going to make sure I could come in her if she came over tonight. I really wish she had texted me earlier and let me know that. I could have been high. (although I'm really still wasted from last night, so I can't complain too much). The bigger shame is that I've got some coke, and some better tar on the way. Tonight was her chance to speedball, which is something she has never done before. I told her if she really didn't want to I wouldn't try to convince her, so I'm not going to. Its funny how she gets stuck in her stubborn, I refuse to see look at things in any other way modes at the worst possible times. last week, she would have come over. I didn't want her to come over though because since I've probably got only one last shebang with her left, I wanted to make sure it was a good one. Everything I've done this weekend has been so that I could get her loaded. Of course I knew this might happen so I made sure to have a backup plan. That plan is to get super duper loaded. This dope I have is kinda crap. I shot over a gram last night, and yes I am still loaded but it shouldn't take that much. Thats why I've got something else on the way. The coke will be almost as much fun alone as it would be with her. God damn I'd love to fuck her as shes rushing on coke and H though. Oh well. Such is life.