I still haven't slept. I was stupid nodding off tired, so I went to bed, and then I couldn't sleep. Laying in bed felt amazingly wonderful though. I love the feel of the blankets on my skin. Anyways I just fixed, and for the first time in a while, I had a really hard time with it. It took me 4 pokes to get it in me. When I finally did, I pretty much blew out a vein in my hand. I got a rush, and I'm definitely loaded, so It could be worse. Its just another reason why I need to take a break for a while.
So I have today off. I have nothing to do. I have no friends, my brother and I aren't talking, My face is all swollen, and I don't really have any money to waste because all of my extra money has already been spent on dilaudid. If nothing else, I want to not buy any more dilaudid. This shit is nickle and diming me. Its not as good as heroin, and I really don't want to do it anymore. Of course quiting opiates takes a lot more than just not wanting to do them anymore. I'm gonna see if I can find a dentist that is open today, or tomorrow. Pretty sure I'm fucked though. It is the 4th of july weekend.
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