Tuesday, July 13, 2010

How the fuck am I so horny?

Today was a good day. I woke up this morning after about 2 hours of sleep, and shot the last of my OC. I made some coffee, took a shower, and brushed my teeth. I show up to work this morning, and my stacking weekly file thingy is missing. In its place is a note that says "it wasn't such a good idea to hide my pen, now was it? Or something to that effect. I was expecting something of this nature, and was not disappointed. I had to find a note, in my wifes drawer, then taped to the back of a monitor, on a cardboard baler, and underneath the cardboard cover of a security device. In the end my files were hidden in a freezer. All in all it was a good time, today was a very light work day, and I don't know what I would have done, had I not had the scavenger hunt to while away my time. I was quite stumped on the second clue, but a call to the wife fixed me up. She gave me enough info to help guide me without making it too easy. I think we should have more scavenger hunts at work, although the wife informed me in no uncertain terms that we were even, and I shouldn't hide any of her things.

The second half of the day turned out to be interesting as well. I went home to each on lunch, and I had to stop by my old therapist office to pick up a check. I got back to work to find that I was stupidly horny. This built throughout the day until I was actually sporting a hard on at the very end. I tried to get out of there without doing anything stupid, but that wasn't to be. What started off as thinking about sex turned into thinking about sex with my wife, and because she has no sex drive turned into thinking about getting her high and then having sex with her. For some reason I find that even more arousing. At the end of the day she came over to my work area to answer a question I had asked earlier. I pulled her over and gave her a hug. She said that she didn't think that was a good idea because she didn't always believe me when I said I didn't still want her. Funny thing is when I hugged her, I felt nothing emotional. I wrapped my arms around her too, feeling what it feels like to have her lay in my arms. Still nothing. I confessed to her how stupidly horny I was and told her that I wanted to shoot her up and then fuck her ass. I left out the choking and beating, I never know if she is going to be repulsed by the idea or not. I saw the veins in her arms, and thats when my body gave me a reaction. I started stroking her veins, thinking about filling them with some coke and heroin. I thought about pulling the needle out and pushing her to her back. holding her body down with my forearm as I undo her pants. climbing on top of her and penetrating her. I thought of her high as a kite, lying on her back, getting fucked for the price of a high, and loving it. I thought about coming in her. God I thought about coming in her. First off I was thinking of coming in her ass, but later I decided I'm not sure what hole I'd like to fill up. I came home and beat off real quick trying to get the images out of my head. It didn't work. I resisted the urge to text her and tell her that I wasn't sure which hole I wanted to fill with my cum. Instead I just beat off again, this time venturing into thinking about tag teaming her. Getting her high, and whoring her out, or fucking her with some buddies. Filling all of her greedy wholes as she lapped up our come, loving every minute of it. The second time did the trick. I found I was able to think normally again. I rinsed my cottons and started reading some websites.

That junkie bitch called me and asked me for a ride to south county to pick up some pills. I obliged and got a little bit of OC for my troubles. That and she put $10 worth of gas in my car and I burned maybe $2 worth. I shot that OC to get to my current elevated state of being, and now I'm here. All in all today has been a good day.

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