I don't get it.

Why the fuck do I want to call her? I don't even want to talk to her. I have nothing to say. I know nothing good will come out of it. I have to remember what type of a person she really is. So why the fuck do I have the urge to call or text? I don't fucking care. I'm not going to do it. I'll find another way to stay busy until I can get my tar.