looks like another sleepless night.

Well, I'll be happy if I get a couple of hours of sleep tonight. I barely slept last night. I was hoping that I would get some sleep tonight. I think I've decided not to go on an adventure tomorrow. I'm gonna stick around and just try to score in town. Its generally a lot more expensive here, but the dope I've seen has been good stuff. Well not really, but better than the stuff I can find in San Francisco. Once again I did all my dope too early. I don't have anything left for the morning. Back in my first life as a Junkie I never would have done that. I always saved something for the morning. I guess it doesn't matter as much right now. I don't really have much of a habit right now. Even if I am a little bit sick. I need to just work through it tomorrow. I need to get back to my motivated self. I felt like I almost had it this last weekend. That fire to do something other than poke myself with hollow needles. I will just have to try to recapture it. I need a challenge at work. My job has gotten way too easy, and so I have become way too lazy. The smack doesn't help. This sure would be a lot easier if there was anything other than sex and drugs that I actually enjoyed. What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm not even human anymore.